Okay, so I’m going to try and make this as short as possible without leaving out too many things.

I know, talking about this guy may be getting old, and it’s really cliche, but I have to. It’s something I really feel the need to talk about without complaining or bragging or retelling the story over and over to my friends. Here is the perfect spot for it.

So there’s this guy, and I’ve kind of really liked him for a long time. I met him a while ago, and we hung out a few times, and I knew he like me too, but after a little while my friend, who goes to his school, said that he thought we lived too far away. Distance is daring, and neither of us know how to drive. Well, have our liscences, at least.

But I never really stopped liking him. I mean, I’m not one to chase after someone if they make a decision like that, because it makes sense to me too, so I just kind of left him alone. But he was still constantly on my mind, and there was almost nothing I could do about it.

A couple months pass without us talking, then one day I’m on the way to the mall to meet my friends. Looking like crap, in sweatpants and a nasty ponytail, I get a text from one friend saying, get this, that he was there.

God damn. HOW? WHY?

But the thing that made this worse was Jess. We hung out at the mall for a while, my friends, him and his friend who knew other people there. Jess… what to say about her.. well, she’s as suttle as a tornado. She kindof got that we liked eachother, and once she saw that she wouldnt stop trying to make something happen. For instance, later that night we were going to see a movie, so him and his friend decided to come along to. When we got there, I was sitting next to Jess, not him. She changed that, by literally grabbing my wrist and draging me across the theater, making a huge scene, and making whoever was sitting next to him move.

Nothing really happened there, but we just kindof talked and stuff, and he’s a really funny guy.

And then, Tuesday, was the Harry Potter premire day. One of my friends who I was at the mall with was throwing a little party before the premire, and he was there. Oh my god, best day of my life, so far.

First off, he’s an actor, and can act pretty.. flamboyant. But he isn’t gay, not at all. He does like to act gay, and after a particularly ‘gay’ moment of his, and him being called gay and such, he was getting a bit irked. So he said, what can I do to prove I’m not gay? And Jess, oh so suttle Jess, says ‘Kiss Lisa.’ So he does.

Keep in mind that that was my first real kiss, and it was extremely awkward and I suck at this stuff. Also keep in mind that this was not his first.

But it wasnt like awkward afterwards, we were still hanging out and stuff, and at one point I was tired of dancing horribly and obnoxiously and I layed down on the driveway so he laid next to me. But, of course, it only took a few seconds till everyone else was laying by us.

Then on the way to the movie, we were paking 4 people in the back of my sisters car, and I was sitting next to him. To make himself ‘more comfortable,’ he put his arm around me. Then he asked if it made me awkward, so I said no. The he kissed me again, and asked me if that made me awkward, and I again said no.

That’s two. And he was also sitting next to me in the theater, where we managed to fit about 10 people in about 6 seats, so he was squishd next to me. He also managed to put his arm around me and hold my hand, and then it was pretty funny because then a while later Jess saw, and she made sure everyone else saw, so he took his arm off of me, then my older cousin who was sitting on the other side of him like threatened him or something, and then he put his arm back around me. But I’m pretty convinced he would have anyways.

And one thing I have to add is that after the premire we were all standing in a group, and then I noticed this big, shiney ball thing, so I sad ‘Oooh, shiney!’ and walked away, without really realizing how stupid I must have looked, haha. Later my sister told me that after I walked away, he facepalmed, then looked at my sister and said, “I like your sister, and she’s distracted by shiney objects.’ Then he shook his head.

Moving on, the next day, or the same day I guess, me and a few other peope who were at the premire who slept over at my friends house went to the mall. So Jess, of course, makes sure to invite him. I like how everyone else seems to be like forcing all this, and I’m not doing a thing. But his answer is a big maybe, and then her phone died, so were left to the conclusion that he wasn’t coming. But then he called someone else, and said he was there, and this is at about the time were supposed to be leaving, so we go to quickly say hi.

So we say hi, then we get a call saying our ride is there, so then I start getting pulled away by one person. Another person, Jess, I believe, grabs me and starts pulling me back towards them. So it’s tug of war for a second until the one pulling me away realizes what Jess is doing, and then I’m left abandoned as they all run away and watch from afar. It was really awkward so I was just kindof like “uhm… bye.” And hugged him and walked away. This wasn’t enough for them, so once I caught up to them they sat me on a bench, put one person on either side of me and one on top of me, and then Jess went to go get him. As I am texting my sister saying “JESS IS A CREEPY CREEPER” everyone leaves and once again were there alone, kind of. It was a bit odd, because at first he like gave me a stage kiss, but then he moved his thumb and gave me a real kiss.

Later that night, I’m sleeping over once again, and so as were getting ready one person says, “Lisa, I’m mad at him.” I ask why, and she says because he hasnt asked me out yet. And then we go into discussion about how this one girl said “he doesn’t date, he just hooks up.” Then someone else comes and says that she talked to him about that and he said he doesn’t date, and when he likes someone he stops talking to them or does something else she cant remember. But then yet ANOTHER person comes and says that he’s liked me for pretty much the whole year, since he met me long ago, and he’s never liked anyone for that long.

So now I’m sitting here, being pessimistic and thinking the worst will happen, with my phone at my side waiting. I also went running today. I absolutely hate running, I can’t stand the idea of just running. But I ran about two miles on the treadmill. I think I run when I’m really nervous or sad or something. God, why isnt he calling me?

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